Ying Xu
I benefited a lot from this Chanting Retreat. While chanting for my parents, Grandmaster guided us to think back on how ungrateful we had been to our parents. So, I tried to think back when I was chanting. Although my father passed away when I was very young and it was my mother who brought us up, I could still visualize my father, smiling at me in the meditation hall. I visualized my mother was there with me, smiling. When my mom was sick, I did not take very good care of her. I confessed to her, told her I was sorry, and asked her to forgive me. She smiled at me. I also visualized my father-in-law. When he was sick in the hospital, I was so busy with work. I seldom cared for him, only visiting him once a week. I did not do my duty as a daughter-in-law. So, I knelt down, chanted and repented. I also saw him in the meditation hall with a smile on his face. I used to have difficulty visualizing my family when I was chanting, but this time I was able to do it. I felt strong energy and was very hot when I was chanting. I was happy and focused. I was grateful to see them all smiling, because I know that this means they are all in a good place now. My heart is filled with light.
Grandmaster also taught us to chant for our children, so I visualized my son chanting alongside of me. He graduated during the 9/11 time. It was hard to find a job. At that time, I came home every day to see him playing video games. When I asked him if he had found a job, he would always get annoyed with me and just shut the door to prevent me from saying anything else. I made offerings for sculpting of the Buddha statue for my son. Over the years I lit lights, prayed and made offerings for him. I hoped that he would have a broad heart, his temper would improve and he would find a good job. Over time, his temper really got better. He began to communicate with me, and eventually, he would share with me when he found a new job.
This time, the Chanting Retreat coincided with the Ullambana Festival. Before the class started, I lit a lamp for my ancestors and for my son’s karmic creditors. I prayed that Grandmaster would bless my son with wisdom, that he would get a better job and to stop losing his temper, which affects everyone. When chanting, I also prayed that Buddha and Grandmaster would bless my son’s karmic creditors to be reborn in a good place. I felt that all of my son’s karmic creditors came to the meditation hall, and I also felt that they were all well.
I had such a good experience. I hope everyone can come to the Chanting Retreat often. Through chanting and repenting, I was relieved of the guilt I had felt for many years towards my parents and father-in-law. When I prayed for my son, I felt that all his karmic creditors had gone to a good place, which made me feel more secure. My whole body felt lighter. Everyone says my appearance has changed a lot in the past few days, and I’ve become beautiful! I am really grateful to Grandmaster.
The intent of the testimonial is to offer wellness information of a general nature. Individual results of practice may vary.